part of me wants to delete all those stupid angry younging year post. i just can't it's like a memory has been frozen, so much growth has occured since i last posted. i've gone through multiple guys and settled with my alex, a year and a half now...crazy yeah.
im really just blown away by this, and if it wasn't 4:30 in the morning i'd stay up and read everyones journals. but just by reading through my own i have the urge to cry.
guessmyspace is a thing of the past? i' gonna keep posting there, guess well...i dunno i'm i victim of internet blog trends....
i dont have a clue how this works anymore..how to change it up...i dont even know who half the people are on my friends list. guess i'll start recomunicating, cause well..i always liked the idea of this better then myspace. and i absolutly hate face book... moving on
college..yeah it's a well i have no idea how to take it all...my life is so different. i readback on a journal entry about how much i hated smoking a ciggarett...shit i smoke a pack a day now. i have two jobs now, its all mindblowing, some how i have full circled back to old lond...how the fuck did that happen? sex isn't a misterious thing that i think i will never have. just to try and think how i use to is so hard to do.
family has changed my grandmom died, april had a baby, matthews in highschool. and i still dont have my licience. i have a whole new group of friends now...and by stepping into this livejournal...i realize how much i miss the old ones. memories that feel like they just happened. it's really blowing me away if anyone hasn't noticed ...shit no one looks at this heh. who knows maybe ill awaken everyone to me or i'll just keep this bit to myself.
been so friggin busey, i shouldn't be on the phone with kate at the moment, but i'am their killing us at school. going to the mall with april thursday but i dunno if can now
my party is saterday, i'm so terrified that no ones going to show up and then i look like the loser i'm
halloween night i think i'm doing... well i dunno, renting movies.. doing some more of the nothing possibley mom wont let me go to rocky horror that night at 12 says she doesnt want me exposed to that....
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I loveable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
today was major excellence, got my wonderful wawwa coffee saw tine for the first time all summer, were hopefully gonna get together soon. then mandy and myself headed to drews where we play pictonary, i gotta a pen thrown at me by kieth, drew so punched mandy. it was me mandy, drew, kieth, bob, dylan and joe my team( drew and dylan) got ourasses kicked, by kieth mandy and bob. for some reason or another joe didnt play and he sat and played video games.
FINALLY!! got my lap top back to the world of the working. past few days havent been to much, just hanging out and such. all the usual people
yeah yeah yeahs next week. i asked april if she wanted to go she said she wants to so i think so fare it's me april mandy and sammie, i think joe said something about wanting to go
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